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Body Dysmorphic Disorder: When seeing isn’t believing.

In high school Amy Pietrangolare was a straight ‘A’ student and a varsity cheerleader. On the surface she appeared to have it all. Beauty and brains with a large loving family. But underneath it all she was hiding a dark secret. She suffered from a mental disorder known as body dysmorphic disorder or BDD.

Sufferers of BDD have an extremely distorted image of how they actually appear. Pietrangolare admitted she had an intense fear of becoming over-weight. Often exercising excessively to the point of exhaustion. Having BDD has caused her to develop a rocky relationship with food even causing her to develop bulimia in high school. The hardest part she says was trying to hide her condition from her family.

“It’s been a struggle all my life, but I think it really got out of control in high school. Believe me hiding it from my huge off-the-boat Italian family was hard. I’d walk in the door and they’d try to shove food down my throat.” Pietrangolare says she hated looking in the mirror but couldn’t keep her eyes off the scale.

Pietrangolare 20, now a junior at the College at Brockport has a contagious smile and a personality big enough to fill the entire room. Her social media is filled with body positive pictures, quotes and messages. Sometimes posting multiple times a day. These serve as a reminder to herself and others that may be secretly suffering the same way she has. A reminder that no one is perfect.

“My goal is to become a more positive person and to spread my energy and excitement for life with everyone. If I could make one person smile a day, that’s when I feel good” Says Pietrangolare.

Pietrangolare is very petite, standing at around 5’0”. Her roommate of three years Katie Porter 20, describes her as ‘A little bundle of positive energy’. She enjoys going to Pietrangolare for mini pep-talks and burst of motivation. But knows she wasn’t always this way. Porter was the first person Pietrangolare met at the College at Brockport and has seen her growth first hand.

In hopes of starting over, Pietrangolare started freshman year much like any other student with bright dreams to become a healthier person. After gaining some healthy weight back stress from school, home, and her then abusive relationship, took a toll on Pietrangolare. Feeling more alone than ever before sent her even deeper into her self-harming ways.

Luckily for Pietrangolare she has found balance in her life. Learning how to love herself is becoming much easier. She prides herself in her newly found strength but still struggles with BDD everyday. She surrounds herself with more positive outlets to take back control in her life.

Relearning how to eat the right way is a goal she has set for herself. Coming from a very heavily Italian-American influenced background much of her diet in the past was various pasta dishes and bread. Lots and lots of bread. Learning to incorporate variety while still staying on a broke college students budget has proven to be a struggle of its own.

Pietrangolare credits her strength and determination for a healthier life to her current boyfriend and new friends she’s met in the recent year. “Their like my little cheerleaders and I’m right there cheering with them”.

No Experience Required!

We've all been there. Your day starts early. Maybe you live in the dorms, maybe you're off campus for the first time, or maybe you commute and you're driving a ton. Any way you're busy running around.

Classes obviously, hours of homework, maybe you have a job, maybe you spend what feels like eternity looking for parking, and of course the ever dreaded group projects that seem to last longer than expected even though nothing seems to get done. Then all of a sudden it's late and you've forgotten to eat! So you grab a few chips and stuff a granola bar in your mouth before heading off to we'll say the 'library' to blow off some steam because let's face it you have to maintain some kind of social life other wise you'd go mad! There isn't much time to even think let alone actually take care of yourself.

What if I told you it doesn't have to be that way? That there are dinning hall hacks to eating healthy or even fast-fun ways you could get a home cooked meal even in your dorms?

Now, now I can already hear you saying, "But Kait! My dorm's common area kitchen is too small and too gross, I don't want to spend hours cooking in there I have class and class."

And to that I say! FRESHMAN FIFTEEN IS REAL! choosing a cheeseburger and fries everyday at the dining halls isn't 'classy' it gets boring fast. Keep that attitude up and I'll have you know FM15 is not only exclusive to freshman year, you have the rest of your life to be busy. Plan your meals around work. Make them count.

Now if you knew me, you'd be just smirking right now. "Come on, Kait. You of all people shouldn't be cheeseburger shaming anyone!" BELIEVE ME I'M NOT! I love me anything to do with cheese and if you top it with bacon I may even just bite your hand off.

But I have lived the dorm life my freshman and sophomore years. I did the whole off-campus thing, sharing a kitchen and two small bathrooms with FIVE other girls. Now I'm a bouncing commuter, primarily living at my parent's house in Greece, spending most of my days at school in Brockport, and then ending most nights at my boyfriend's house in Rochester. Along with the amount I spend in gas money every week; finding quick, easy, and mainly affordable ways feed myself has become sort of an exciting hobby.

I know how big the grocery store feels that first shopping trip and that daunting moment when you realize that an economy size box of Pop-Tarts just won't cut it any more. BUT!

You'd be surprised at how little time and effort it takes to make a home cooked meal that won't break the bank. You'll feel a sense of pride as your hall mates beg you to cook for them. When that happens either make some quick cash or send them right back over here!